Revamp

So today I decided to switch gears on how I will execute this blog. I feel like I'm entering a endless cycle of regret and failure. Most of witch has to do with my lack in drive or will power. The rest has to do with the way I'm writing my journey. This is not for you guys to feel bad for every time I screw up. It's more for those who have tried it all and really want to see how others do it. I have done it before. So I am capable. In the past I lost around 80 pounds. Though I did it in ways I do not want to repeat, it was done however. So what I'll do now is as each challenge comes up, like when my grumbling stomach is raging for food, I'll show what and how to evade lt. I can say it won't be easy for me. Though like a good buddy of mine keeps telling me, "talk is cheap" and the only way to show is to do. So I'm done with this constant quitting and ill be starting with a new fire. This time it will stick. Without a doubt it will stick.

Relaxing day #2

Today was just another day of rest and relaxation. After returning home from Boston at 5 am rest was all I needed. And it was surely appreciated. My body really enjoyed the vacation. I could feel the tense muscles melt into submission. I did quite well today. Breakfast I ate some eggs and few prices of bread. Lunch, rice and chicken. That's where the healthy stopped and the unhealthy crept in. For dinner I ended up eating a Wendy's chicken sandwich and fries. Though other than that It was pretty smooth. Tomorrow is where the fire begins. And the dedication and hard work comes in. I promise not to let you guys down this time. Most importantly I promise not to let myself down. With that said its time to say good night. Sweet dreams.

Complicated schedule of a busy man

So today I took an unexpected vacation. After a long night of yoga I had to wake up at 5 Am to set off for bean town. Thank god I wasn't driving.
While taking a restful sleep my father was whizzing us toward a relaxing vacation. The charming scenery of Boston melted away the stress. Now I didn't, unfortunately, complete today's P90x workout. Though I surely worked out a lot. The walking around the city and the general goofing around sure made up for the loss of a day. I seem to have developed a strain on my left shoulder and collarbone. Maybe yesterday's yoga was more than my body could handle. Though I'm sure it's just the regular strain. In any case, I managed to do somewhat good today. With coffee and a "nature valley" Bar for breakfast. A grilled cheese and fresh chips for lunch. Lastly chicken and string beans for dinner. It may not be the most fascinating day out of the list of days to come. But I promises you the days are ahead. Things will get more in depth. And as I find certain things to keep the beast of hunger at bay I will share my secrets. I still have some tricks up my sleeves. So stay tuned. Good night.

"Back with a vengeance"

Whoa, today was great. All the way to the end. I woke up eat a bowl of cereal. And just continued to lick my wounds and try to fight off this cold. Then towards the end of the day I had a good Spanish meal (Rice, beans, and chicken). Then it was followed with a good session of yoga. Where my sister and I really brought it. I also took out the famous Stephen king "IT" yoga block. Then I just cleared my mind. It was fantastic. My body and mind seemed to unify itself into the soul. I always love to workout. Though brining myself to do it is tough. I'm not sure why,but it's always a struggle. Anyway today was great! Looking for more days like this.

I have to take a knee..

I know this is not the most fascinating blog out there. I also know that I'm not the most determined person in the world. And tough I'm in good condition to workout. I decided to hold off today. I needed to lick my wounds. My cold is creeping up on me. Which, in my experience, just worsens with vigorous exercise. So I took a rest today. It didn't help that I totally went ape on my diet. But I digress. With that said, I will do like my "pal" tony horton always recommends. Which is take a break if you need it. Then come back with a vengeance. That is exactly what I'm going to do. No excuses, no maybes. No more messing around. Im going to be 100% committed. Now talk is cheap. Which means only action will prove to myself and you that I mean what I say. So I'm going to finish my rest day. Hopefully I'm better tomorrow, then I would return to business. For now I take my sleep now that I can get it. And return again tomorrow. Good night

So I was reminded...

Why I wanted to work out early in the first place. Holy f**king sh*t. Excuse my language. That morning rush was ten fold after putting off that workout until the last possible second. I had to quickly shave (which is not recommended), take a shower, breakfast and rush out the door. Mind you when I left I was 20 minutes behind schedule. I had to punch it dodging traffic like a madman. All you heard that afternoon was my aftermarket muffler shouting down the service road. Which caught its own perils outside of police attention. Like other people looking to race me. I mean c'mon! Really? Of all times you want to race in the middle of rush hour while everyone including myself is trying to get to work. Moreover after successfully evading several near accidents I made to work. With five minutes to spear. Granted I was a mess with my hair, shirt, and face a total wreck. Not to mention my heart was still racing from the workout. Though at least I was there. Later on I demolished my simple lunch of rice with chopped lettuce. Then headed home. There I suddenly began to unravel all the hard work I did this morning. And it all started with a pot of rice. I don't know, it's like my body has been accustomed to eating after work. Or maybe I really was hungry. Either way I started eating and didn't look back. First was a small pot of rice, about a cups worth. Then a few homemade biscuits that were terribly salty. So instead of throwing them out, or just put them from wence they came, I decided to couple them with some maple syrup. Now isn't that nutritious. Then to top it all off my mom brings home pizza for dinner. Now at this point I should have cut my losses and avoid eating the pizza. However I simply couldn't just say no. Especially when she made it for moi. Here you must be thinking I ate just a slice then went on my way. Well your wrong my friends dead wrong. You can't put a fat man along side pizza and expect him to just have a slice. That's why I believe Planet Fitness is such a terrible gym. I mean, I try so hard to avoid junk food and here you are giving it away. What world are we living in? Anyway so today was a step forward and two steps back. At this rate I'll be stuck in this unhealthy cycle forever. But what's done is done. And I have to keep believing that it's in me somewhere. That I have what it takes to be healthy and fit. Well good night guys. And it's 3:00 now, I'm going to need lots of luck for tomorrow. Oh, and before I forget, I did finish off the day with the AB ripper. It was tough as nails. Some of the exercises were to hard for me to finish. Though in due time I feel it would become a lot easier. Or at the very least doable.

(day5) "Bring It!"

That phrase was yelled several times this morning. I felt like a Lion on the hunt. With my eyes set on the prize I pushed myself hard and good. I still have an early morning wake up issue. However I'm getting the workout before work down packed. Finally, I'm actually working. Enough of these broken promises and stupid choices. Time to dig deep and see what I'm made of. Hopefully this is the first of many steps forward. Now it's time to have my brunch of home made rice with some tossed lettuce, accompanied by a few multivitamins. Which is very important. Not because I feel like I need all these vitamins. In fact I have heard that all I end up doing is buying some funky urine. However since I don't have a huge pantry, or big budget for food, I have to get those vitamins from somewhere. Well anyway, feeling great! And looking towards a positive future. Will check back later tonight. I still left the worst for last, AB ripper.

(day4 )"Victory!"....

Is what I said today. Though it's a small victory. I managed to wake up and work out. With that said I still didn't reach my goal. I manages to fit in a workout today because I had nothing else planned for this morning. I need to start a new habit of waking up early. Which is easier said than done. However there is still hope, I feel that I'm walking in the right direction. And with the exercise came a healthier diet. Today I ate pretty well. Rice and salad for lunch, a cliff bar for snack, lastly chicken and rice. I didn't eat breakfast though. Not because I wasn't hungry, but because I woke up at 11. Therefore I skipped it. Nonetheless I had a good day. I also learned a very important lesson. Do not do P90x in the backyard if your backyard contains Mosquitos. Holy crap that was awful. I couldn't concentrate for a second without having to swat and kill a nasty little skeeter. Though I tried convincing myself to "Bring It" it was a loosing battle. 15 in I couldn't hack it a note and ran back inside. So much for a bright workout. Well, lesson learned. Anyway that's all to report for today. It was good and I'm moving forward. I will be posting my before stats and day 1 pictures. It will not be pretty, well besides my face. Well good night readers. I hope that I can bring some hope to you. Never be afraid to express your troubles, and always feel free to comment. I know it's hard to loose weight. And I also know things get easier when you have someone to talk to. So never hesitate. Well, good night. Oh before I forget. I also managed to sneak in a few bowls of cereal before dinner. I'm not perfect. Though it was Quaker heart healthy cereal. So it wasn't all bad. However I surely didn't need to have a few. We live and learn.

(day3) Again?!?

Sorry to disappoint. I have no discipline. I didn't manage to wake up this morning. I'm sure you know how it is. Im not making any excuses. For there is no excuse. This is for me. And all im doing is letting myself down. Though with this blog I feel like I'm letting down a whole community of people like me. I started this to show you that it could be done. Although I've only been able to show you is that it can't. For that, I'm sorry. With that said, just because I didn't accomplish what I said I will do, doesn't mean I failed completely. My diet was quite good today. Starting off with a low-fat macaroni and cheese. Then a protein bar. Lastly a nice salad. Also I will be working out in a few minutes as well. So even though I made an error. I did do my best to fix it. But I do see my flaws. The first thing I need to fix, immediately, is my sleep habits. As my schedule requires to be an early riser I need to couple that with an early sleep. Furthermore, until I manage to wake up early my weight-loss plan will fail. So I'll try, once again, tomorrow morning. But damn another late workout is the worst way to prep for an early wake up. In any case time to pop in a "chest and back" and get started. Good night

Finally some rest.

Today was good. Sunday's are always the rest/stretch day on the P90X program. So needless to say I enjoyed it. I didn't have to worry about disappointing myself today. So I spent the day sitting around and licking my wounds. Even though I only worked out twice this week, my muscles are still very sore. The stretching helped a lot with that though. There was not much to report for you guys today. But it's tomorrow is what counts. I plan to kick ass, finally, tomorrow. I plan to wake up early and just "Bring It". With my track record there is no guarantee however I really want to believe that I can do it. Well good night to you all.

Day 2...

Was another typical day in my life. I wake up (late) rush to work, then procrastinate working out until the last possible minute. I'm not sure what it is. Or why I do it. However I am trying, sort of, to move passed this phase. Though if that was my only thing I screw up it would be one thing. However I totally trash my diet. Just today I ate 2 servings of oatmeal, a footlong sandwich, a cookie here and there, shrimp pasta, and cereal. Which is totally unacceptable. It would be one thing if I was doing a marathon an I need the carbs. However I'm not running at all, and I'm carrying way to much fat to be eating this way. Of course I say this and I tend to fall for another set of bad foods. Though I am trying to surpass that. With all that said, after the I finally worked out I started to feel great. It seemed to melt the day and the stress. Seeing the sweat pour made me believe I can do this. Though I absolutely know I cannot do it alone. This is why I write. So that maybe someone would have some words of wisdom to give to me. I'm sure I'm not the only one who is trying to blast away years of fat buildup. I'm also sure that there had been successes among those who tried. So if you have a tip please share. As you can see, I really do need some help. Thanks. And have a good night...

Old habits die...

HARD! I promised myself I would be 100% true to my audience. Just to show you that I am human. Also to point out that what I'm doing is not easy for me, or anybody else in my shoes. This is a lifestyle change. And if you can't comprehend how hard it is try it. Try to name at least 3 things you do everyday without thinking about it. Then suddenly stop doing those things for a week. You'll come to find out how hard life becomes without it. With that said, I have to stop making excuses. Today I f**ked up. I tried to keep up with P90x but somewhere down the line I managed my time wrong. The late night yoga made it nearly impossible for me to get up for my workout the next day. Which is bad enough until I combined that with eating a ton of Oreos. I thought I was stronger than this. I thought I could beat it. Well, I guess I couldn't. Not to say that I'm giving up. Never that. I'm just acknowledging that I made a mistake. One that I will try not to make again. But only time could tell. I'll try to restart again in the morning. And take yet another step in the right direction.

(Day 1) Stephen King's "IT"...

Provided an excellent surrogate for a yoga block. Today was Yoga X day. One of the many exercises in the P90x program. And boy was it a doozy. My body was secreting more water than I drank today. Which, by the way, is very dangerous if you plan to hold a warrior 2 pose. The sweat on the mat almost made me fall into an accidental split. All in all, I felt great doing it. Like my buddy, we actually never met, Tony Horton says, "it's like a ride you have never had before". And boy was he right. You push yourself to hold these strange poses that require a lot of strength and flexibility. Which if your new to it, like I am, it could feel like a living hell. Though by the end of it you'll feel like a new man. The sweat that drenched your clothing on the beginning slowly evaporates as you progress. And you emerge calm, fresh, and dry. I wish I didn't leave it for last minute, though I'm glad I actually did it. Now it's time for a nice warm shower, a cup of ice cold water, and a good rest. Good night.

Failure?

In order for a workout to be successful you have to actively incorporate it into your day. For me the best possible time to workout is during the morning. More specifically from 8-10 am. After that my window is closed. Therefore I need to be an early riser. After all that old saying "the early bird catches the worm" must have some truth to it. So I gave it a shot, and what a miserable failure that was. I must have hit the snooze button over 15 times. Gripping onto those sheets as is the cold air will kill me. It's like my body knew what pain is was about to endure and opted out. And I'm sure you can guess who won that battle. That's right, I ended up skipping my morning workout. Which, in turn, got me to making more poor choices throughout the day. Like having a piece of cake even though I knew I shouldn't have. I feel like my will and drive to succeed is not as strong as I thought. Back in the wrestling days I would be able to control myself. I used to control those urges. Now, not so much. However the day is not over. And I will workout today. I just have to accept this small hiccup and steam roll past it. Because if I dwell on it for too long I would end up right back to square one.

Not even a day

I'm having a hard time. As I lie here in my bed, my stomach growls for satisfaction. It's like my dinner wasn't enough to fight the hunger. Even though I had 2 servings. I lie here awake hoping to take another step forward. Though my body is hoping that I'll fold. So here I am. To remind myself why this is worth it. Why must I suffer and endure this night. For without sacrifice there is no reward. This is the first of many attempts my body will make to throw me off course.
Therefore I need to hold on to my drive and fire. Constantly remind myself why I do this. And show the world that it doesn't take deep pockets or a scalpel to get fit. Just persistence and will. Not even a day but soon it will pass.

The first step in a long journey

So like most of us out there I have been struggling with my weight. This struggle has began since I was a mere child. From 3rd grade through high school weight loss and weight gain has always been on my mind. And the source of my problem has been an issue of money. Since eating healthy requires more money than an unhealthy diet. I would tend to eat on the unhealthy side. Now to my memory there was only one time that I came out on top of the the whole weightless issue. That was during high school. While trying to make myself a good college candidate as well as trying to be more active, I joined football and wrestling. Which contradicted each other. While football wanted me big and strong. Wrestling wanted me lean and mean. However I managed to make it work. Doing sports was by far the best thing I could have done, health-wise. Since it encouraged weight-loss. At my peak of fitness I was around 215 pounds and quite strong. I loved it. Fitting into new clothes. Being able to shop were I wanted and not having to worry about them carrying my size. It was great. I thought I would just continue from there. Until multiple injuries and continuous money issues prevented me from moving forward. So let's move on to today. I managed to not only put on all the weight I lost, but add some extra on top of that. And the dream of getting a six pack died. I was so close yet so far away. Now I'm starting up from scratch yet again. But this time I want to finish. Go all the way to the end. Reach the infamous six pack. And achieve a goal I had always dreamt of since I was a child. Though it won't be an easy path. If my estimates are correct I would have to loose upwards of 100 pounds to reach my goal. And I haven't been below 200 pounds since 6th grade. Only time can tell if I will make it. Hopefully with an audience behind me I can have the confidence and persistence I need to reach my goal.